Today is the 9th of September and a day which had me nearly screaming my head off due to stress and demanding professors. I know they mean well and I must say that they really do care for the students. Unfortunately, they ran into students like me who is starting to wonder if education is really all I have made it out to be. Sometimes I dont know if too much concern is such a good thing. While they took interest in what we are doing, all these constant monitoring has put me on the edge and really, I can do without some of it.
Anyway, I'm starting to write a blog now as I've read a lot of my friend's blogs and I just realized that there are benefits to it. Especially using this as a platform for me to share my quiet moments and struggles with anyone who is interested and also for me to blog about my walk with God. Hope my shepherd doesn't see this, haha, I'm afraid he might be too interested and start asking me lots of questions which I find it quite a hassle to answer. Like I said, sometimes I could really do without the monitoring. Isn't life already as stressful as it is even if it was done in complete love and care? I'd say I appreciate it but sometimes I like to be left alone to ponder. I guess when the time is ripe, God will point the flaws out to me.
John 15. Jesus said that I am the vine and you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit. Apart from me, you can do nothing. In verse 9 it says, "As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love." I realized from this few short verses, the word remain in me/my love appeared 11 times. What does remaining in Jesus means? In the same chapter, Jesus answered that remaining in him meant obeying his commands just as he has remained in God by obeying God's commands.
Sounds controlling doesn't it? But in actual fact, Jesus also pointed out that if you remain in him and his words remain in us, ask whatever you wish and it will be given to you. So that is not controlling but that Jesus wanted to give us good things. Through obedience to Jesus, we would gain much much more than we would ever lose. Not that we would lose anything except the opportunity to be selfish and wicked. That is something I can certainly do without. And what are Jesus commands? Love each other as I have loved you. Phew... that's quite a challenge for me but I want to obey. Not because I want things from God but because I just know that it is beautiful and loving others is so challenging. I want to do it because it is good and I know that I myself want to be loved by others too.
Indeed the greatest thing that I learned was from 13 to 15. Jesus has called me his friend. I know that I am willing to go any distance for a friend and I certainly do love every single one of them. Now God is saying that I am his friend. I am so happy now that all my unhappiness that I have felt this morning has gone away. I too want Jesus to be my friend and to do that, I shall obey him by learning to love people as he has loved me. How has he loved me? by becoming my friend! That means I should make friends of other brother and sisters as well as non believers so that we may all be friends forever:)
My Prayer:
Lord I thank you for guiding me through today. You have certainly given me much though I often perceived myself to be lacking but I have never been in want. I want to pray and ask of you to help me remain in your love through loving others. You know that I am very poor in this aspect as I do not know how to bring out my feelings and am often afraid that people would misunderstand me. But today I want to ask that I no longer look at my own capabilities but to look to you instead. That how you loved me despite my flaws should be how I love those you have put around me. Indeed, the people you have placed around me are not there to give me trouble but to allow me to share you love with them. Lord, please help me in this that I may seek and find your heart of loving people. I pray especially for the cutting off of my own ways of loving, I want not to love them by my own ability but with your love. I also want to pray for my father who is suffering from pains in his side. I pray that you would heal him because you love him too. You said that if I remain in your love, anything I ask in your name will be given to me. Help me oh Lord and keep your promises. I love you God.
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wahx your haven is pink, same as mine lolx. I'm v. encouraged by your heart to love people. As far as I know, the bible only offers one formula we can use for loving people: “I tell you, her sins—and they are many—have been forgiven, so she has shown me much love. But a person who is forgiven little shows only little love.” Luke 7:47 (NLT)
I think the verse is so cool and true. The more love from Jesus we receive, the more it'll flow naturally out of us. May the people of God love each other more and more each day, showing ourselves to be Christ's disciples :)
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